Monday, May 29, 2006

lunes, 29 de mayo


tying things up here in xela. I plan to leave on the 11:30am bus tomorrow for guatemala city, that should get me there late afternoonish. I'll spend wednesday doing last minute guatemala stuff and then thursday make my way to the airport - I think bus #83 south along avenida 10a does the trick, but I'll double check. I'll be in venice friday all day (get in after midnight thursday, michelle's picking me up, thanks again michelle).

bytheway, I posted an update to my website a couple days ago. check it out here.

Monday, May 22, 2006

lunes, 22 de mayo,

still in xela, and I really like it here. this is the perfect place for riding out the end of my trip, it’s better than I could’ve hoped. it’s a perfect sized town / city, it’s easy to get around and has wonderful places to hang out in – good cafés, restaurants and a great central plaza. there is an internet place across the street, so I don’t have to walk far with my laptop, not that it seems like there’s any threat of crime that I’ve noticed. I think I’ll stick around here through next weekend and then head back to Guatemala city for the last few days before I leave – maybe I’ll swing through Antigua, but it seems likely I’ll probably blow it off in favor of the capital.

I’ve been getting quite a bit of work done here. I’ve transcribed an odd collection of travel notes, I’ll include them here, more for my own sake than because I imagine they’ll be of much interest, or have much significance to anybody but me… but if I put them here, they’re safe from getting lost, the internet is a good place to back things up, you know. maybe a little more interesting… or at least maybe a bit more entertaining are a handful of incomplete nursery rhymes that I began when I was still in Antigua, but then got distracted from and forgot about until I went back through my paper scraps.

here are some photos, I haven’t been taking a lot since I’ve been here, partly because I keep forgetting to bring my camera with me, partly because it’s been raining a lot, but anyway, I’ll put what I’ve got here and then follow them with the transcriptions.




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violence-history of ethics - looking into the future

love-considering the existence of love

the environment/ecology-and management of the planet

economy-new economy-favors-creative non- consuming. do for the sake of doing/giving

for the environment do abstracted landscapes – sidewalks

there seems like there was a 4th thing … religion? politics?


birth-violence (?)

most of the images of violence are masculine-consider feminine violence

gentle rain
several walks
south of park – photo
north of school (town name?)
bookstore-free book
homework/laundry
read in park
updated website
bar one-and-a-half for me – 16 + 8? 12 +8?
precious notecards

satellite tv must’ve changed the third world much more dramatically and revolutionarily than it did the first-digital everything

music: kings of leon

I guess it feels like vacation because there’s nothing I have to do.

focus on spanish-practice as much as you can stand
locate wifi
locate bookstore
buy sandals

color, love, hope, time

beauty, love, hope/security/comfort, time

beauty – love – time - security/comfort

what is the relationship between love and beauty?

what is the relationship between love and happiness?

reassess what love is and what beauty is-start from scratch: do they exist? reaffirm your faith.

remember that love is not the only priority or even the highest priority for some (many)… security, comfort, freedom, others?

consider the role of relationship – connection – what is the link between love and relationship?

is the division/separation between rich and poor greater here than in the first world? I think it is… what are the numbers

terrell’s show is happening right now march 4, 2006. who’s the there? - I really miss them if I let myself.

check that wireless address again.

blog about today before bagel barn tomorrow.

verbs will really expand my options for speaking-the grammar will come.

bars are pretty much the same everywhere.

as far as foreign bars go, I think I prefer the ones in cincinnati

the first world has been here (guatemala) since before it was the first world-spain may have been a late comer… or an early one.

every situation has a correct response
-being big about unmet expectations
-being decisive about painting and livelihood
-taking charge arbitrarily and as necessary

sometimes there’s so much beauty in the world I feel like I can’t take it.
-american beauty

write and research while preparing the canvases.

buy a camera
go to nova color
store stuff

portraits – historical portraits from paintings and photos-use imagination/license-take liberties

consider dream violence

look to sidewalks or compositional insights

bodies can be unrecognizable shapes – amorphic/biomorphic/abiomorphic(?)

blood can be a shape or color-as can weapon, ocean, mother, mountain, travel, death, love, kill, animal, bomb

remain aware of the things that have lasting value/significance/import –and those that are merely momentary

- momentary or immediate pleasure is good and important to enjoy – but it pales alongside of it the eternal… ongoing/continuing/longterm/lifelong.

if we leap too far or too quickly from our worldview (comfort zone) then we risk insanity.

pondering death
pondering distance-foreign cultures
pondering loss of love, loneliness, alienation
pondering nature of reality

change early work pages

strive to tell the complete truth / to know the complete truth – not hiding from unwanted truths… not limiting self by prejudism or fear

I walked so far but found myself so near where I started – almost didn’t need to go at all.

design/make (plaster?) capitals and columns for studio, with faces on four sides

pay attention to the news for painting subjects.
april 17 tel aviv bombing story had interesting title potential- can you focus on one day’s news? probably too narrow.

there’s no way or need to pass judgment on violence. you’re not trying to judge it, you’re trying to understand it … but towards the end of doing away with it? hmmmm – or simply in consideration of it? … why do we do this? why self-destruct? self hate?

complex shapes with incorporated lines, but not necessarily “out”lines

do a series on paper

try out ebay

consider relationship between sex and violence
love/sex is similar to love/violence

consider nature of emotions – do web search what studies have been done? emotion and neurology… how does it work?

how does war fit into our evolving paradigm? how do we view enemies… what has changed since ww2? consider sports fans’ enthusiasm for their teams success – what leads to that?

are we growing into our christianity? are we evolving toward a christian communism?

there was a time when the evilness of strangers was believed in. is that still the case or is it changing? bush says the terrorists are evil-doers… they say bush is the great satan

what else? drive home

work from photos, reproductions or life. move outside of head.

write without organization.

empty basket

look up history of violence
search psychology of violence
cain and abel
goya cover
hastings
troy
north africa cartoons (dutch)
civil war
assassinations series-caesar, abraham lincoln, king, etc. remember becket – martyrs

write up specific acts of violence-not just war, also crime.

july august september october-cincinnati

clouds often make the sunset.

look on-line for jobs/grants/apts

there are some who make decisions, but don’t make the right decisions. decisiveness alone is not enough… but of course it does get you started.

sex in and of itself is a rarely worth the trouble - love however, always is… what about relationship – closer to love…is there a difference in that sense?

I’m ready to start living again.

youthful hubris>icarus fall> pinnacle of indecision then back down the other side. sisyphus metaphor?

it’s ok to make money - the trouble is in having false (unrealistic) expectations for what the money can do - bring happiness/solve problems – (non financial)

remember to cover goya

the series could go from linearly representational to less so (less literal, more abstracted, less recognizable) the progression can be more clear through the cohesion of the group – more and more abstracted versions of similar themes.

bounce back and forth between historical to present(?)

art project – put padlocks on things

locked/unlocked?

so much of my work
is done it in the morning
between sleeping and waking (rising)
while I’m still in bed.

cain and abel
the straw that broke the bactrian back
the danish cartoons
trace it back to the war - and further to the wtc
the camel’s inch that led to the mile

in order to return to venice I need to find love and livelihood.
travel to guatemala and cincinnati and maybe ithaca or elsewhere might just be flings before settling down with a return to venice - or maybe they are my version of striking it rich metaphor – the reverse of going west, or searching for treasure.

cable station idea -watergate hearings

how far away from violence am I? how would I react if threatened? how soon would I turn to violence in the face a perceived personal danger? how much of my pacifism is symptomatic of my privileged state of personal security?

page 34 costain – conquering family
degree of suffering determines success of king – “due to suffering he brought to his people” - hence good leader alleviates suffering - basis for appraisal.


too often we choose the fulfillment of immediate needs over long-term needs which ultimately leads to loneliness and hollowness.

big picture
environment/global warming

in every relationship times arise when the choice to take the easy way out must be balanced by the more difficult, and possibly risky way that has the potential, if not the promise, to eventually pay off.


too many options make life complicated, and yet the key (one of them?) to fulfillment is recognizing and acting on one’s options-with attention and coherence to your values. seems catch-22ish - but let me think it out.


violence? what are we school children?

I wonder if these conversations I overhear are the same that were spoken 80 years ago in paris.

burger king crowns


janis joplin is singing now and it reminds me of juliana and le carrousel patisserie … could that have been 17 years ago? twice her lifetime

I’m so far away but it really doesn’t seem far away, is that because it’s the same continent?

janis also reminds me of carla

I must e-mail to juliana and carla and alex

is it the discontentedness of others that I perceive? or is it my own? am I really as content as I perceive myself to be? as contented as I pretend to be? I think I mostly am… but I’m so gullable, you know.

everything is happier in color

sculptures, there must be sculptures.

what is the dehumanizing factor that invades the psyche of world leaders?

there must be a separate sense of ethics/morality that comes into play when the responsibility is with the big picture rather than with the individual.

so many people dying needlessly. is there an alternative to suffering and unnecessary death?

a lack of options is at the root of global inequality
but are those options relevant? in los angeles the difficulty is having too many options-like oil painting ~ there are always an infinity of possibilities even within the most narrowly defined parameters (system). – and yet the perception of limitation, inequality, oppression breeds discontent.

is art an appropriate method?

what can art accomplish? is there better way/medium? is it possible to provide hope? realistic hope/believable hope-not just good enough for the gullible and ignorant masses, but something that can actually be believed by rational-minded children of the scientific/digital/information age?

what brings about violence?

my immediate thought is that it is fear-driven. I think also there is a related anger, deep-seeded, and rooted in an awareness of injustice… there’s insecurity, self-righteousness, learned values/experience, religion and paradigm – what is learned and what is ingrained from evolution… what can be changed/overcome?

-perhaps life is not fair after all-could this be true? I don’t know, I need to take a closer look at values.

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I’m at café no se listing to lou reed waiting for his man

nope/yep

can I make an illustrated book? will that do it?-I must market it - there must be an audience!

now nico is singing femme fatale. I bummed a cigarillo – it’s probably the worst thing I’ve ever smoked-I’m drinking a victoria cerveza -it’s good, just ordered another

xwhat if I illustrated the bible, along side of an illustrated history of western civilization? alongside an illustrated study of classical literature?-could that do it? somehow look at the progression to the present with an intent to try to perceive the inertial possibilities leading into future developments


the questions that must be asked are -does violence work? and if so when?

does it appear to work because it so starkly and recognizably affects the short term?


one pretty flower
fallen to the deck
forgotten

one
pretty flower fallen
to the floor
forgotten


buy program manuals
buy camera
look into grants
look into ebay
do small drawings for show
work on book


plan paintings ahead of time
maybe practice on paper/computer

play around a lot with color combinations
keep individual paintings simple-maybe two or three colors plus black, but then vary that and have more complicated compositions-aim for great variance


carl somebody angry about jill rice
bill reynolds-no girl, but kelly pytel and mary o’neill later
dave maynard angry about chris lasco
charlie moushey and I got into a couple of fights-no recollection of reason.
I used to hit tim when I was ten(ish) and frustrated by inability to be heard - is that why I speak loudly?

I broke the dorm room phone, upset after a fight with debbie
I threw a painting through the window during a fight with juliana


work in the idea of (the wrongness of) forcefully imposing one’s will on another.
look for violent acts that are looked at as historically benign – columbus’s ok, but a little easy. .. richard lionheart is better … who else?

what about films? are there quotes? fight club?

research atrocities in general-in guatemala, in particular-allow mayan methods to influence - particularly ceramic paintings

think about violent shapes/colors also about threatening/acquiescent/vulnerable

rachel carson-violence of sea/nature ~ or if not that, look at her method of citing particular examples - lots of potential for brief citings of (perhaps) instances of historical and contemporary violence-let the reader/viewer draw conclusions

can the theme move beyond consideration of violence?

what’s the medieval image of aristotle and wife?-1997 horizontal drawings
are there other instances/images of female violence? texas depression murders – drownings / amputations?

where in the old brain is violence buried? what did jung say? what about other psychologists?

considere battle diagram as painting - compare with football play

clearly there is no way to overcome violence any time soon - and would it be right to do so, if we could? is there a positive side, or need for violence?

I just killed a bug (april 25th 2006 ) on my arm, didn’t even check to see if it was a mosquito-felt like an ant. it wasn’t really violence-more negligence.

other than cain and abel – are there biblical/literary/mythological instances?

look for history of barbed wire – when did it move from ranch to urban security?

what about all the barbed wire and razor wire and guatemala? can that be a title?

variety

the thing about including words is that it allows for greater abstraction in the image.

also, variance within group of recognizable to abstract allows for more freedom in image.

genghis vs. kublai – was each as cruel? what about chin(?) which was the paranoid violent one?

consider how often violence has worked for individual/short term.

who said he who lives by the sword dies by it

there is more truth in a sword than in a thousand words

search for quotes on violence (and swords)

not everybody wants to solve a conflict
not everybody values peace over violence

remember joel thoreson – violence fantasies – find those drawings

quilts/tapestries

download fleetwood mac-tusk

thatch roofed shelters, like shaggy multi-legged mammoths wading in the shallows.

bright red rooster just across the lagoon.

can violence marry with pretty colors? I think pastels must be used but used sparingly. play with neutrals.

I’ve had a couple dreams now about somebody trying to take this pen. that’s very strange to me.

the closed door
of my heart
is locked
from the inside

the closed door
of my heart
is blackened
from fire

the closed door
of my heart
opens easily
on well oiled hinges

(opens reluctantly
on rusted hinges)

consider relationships between triangles and circles

patterned costumes - armor?

murder/assassination paintings
martyrs - sebastian, catherine

spreading democracy is the new version of spreading christianity. remember that spreading christianity (by spaniards) was really looking for gold, just like the spread of democracy masks (and facilitates) the pursuit of oil … and the spreading of corporate control.

look at culturally accepted things that have changed (become no longer acceptable - what has led us to this? if violence as a potential cannot be overcome, to what extent can it be done away with as an actuality?

are there different kinds of violence? i.e. calculated vs. passionate

delta = change; because it’s pointy like a weapon?

choose historical and literary events - when possible, find visual sources. write factual non-biased accounts. do studies for paintings. paint.
-also, look for contemporary events. use similar methods to develop paintings
-do studies on paper, a size compatible with scanner-display behind glass

just think - what is the best environment for thinking?
-it’s not just a matter of time, it’s also one of opportunity
-it’s also a matter of access to information, materials, and communication

many people simply don’t know what to do-they simply wait, do enough and … may be doing nothing isn’t all it’s cracked up to be … maybe it’s only valuable when it is chosen as an alternative to the societal pressure to do something … and as a countermeasure to too much something-doing.

poverty is lack of opportunity more than lack of wealth.

I wonder what that girl in the restaurant was writing yesterday.

grizzlies enjoying a bath
elephant doing an amazing balance beam walk
snakes, black swans, flamingos, llamas, water buffalo

puma preoccupied with children on other side of fence.


love/sex/violence-these are things connected with strong emotions/insanity

consider the importance despite the risks of allowing these insanities

can we allow only the constructive elements while eliminating the negative ones?

eve’s guilt and shame over the loss of eden is analogous to the despair I felt from monster dream – the losing of everything, suddenly, not having realized that it was had or that it could be lost – and through a mistake/sin that was not recognized as such – coloring on bedroom wall

use ethnic and art historical sources-look online-look for trans-cultural similarities.

suspended sculptures like marionettes



gonzalo fernandez de oviedo – blood and chocolate

-in meso american thought, hearts of sacrificial victims were conceived (depicted) as cacao pods-implying an analogy between blood and chocolate beverages.

-originally the spaniards did not like the taste of cacao beverages and found the “abundant foam that smeared the lips repulsive”-eventually with the addition of sugar cacao became popular.

jaguar with maize, on head appears frequently on vertical pedestal sculptures.

try doing papier-mache relief on panel

very simple paintings flat orange with red figure outlined with black and maybe some black decorations-consider this when painting.

on his transit to death, the maize god rides a canoe manned by paddler gods. under the canoe the god emerges as a child from maw of an aquatics monster. elsewhere two beautiful women are dressing and adoring him.

do cover versions based following descriptions:

young and attractive woman with an elaborate headdress

enthroned lord with warrior headdresss and shield

copador bowl with monkeys, regarded as patrons of the arts in meso america


I watch a blue butterfly appear and disappear with each gentle flap of its wings

derek jensen-the culture of make believe

mirador –

make opportunities fearlessly.
see the opportunities to create more opportunities.
remember the exponential increase of acquaintances in 1986.

for all practical purposes, water is immortal-well ok, I know it’s not alive, but …

this water rushes through semuc champey everyday whether I’m here or not – now that I think of it though, it’s not the same water at all. this could be the only time that most of this water will ever do this. think of the the journey each molecule of water has-think of the excitement of leaping down falls and bubbling through rapids -grab life… think of the water that passes through our bodies… that compose our bodies. 500 million years old or something like that.

maybe decorative vessels… material?

also paper pieces-small-display behind glass? maybe 8 and a half by 11

interactive sculpture that allows a viewer to impale it?

embroidery?

dresden codex is a long accordion folded book ornately written and decorated.

jaguar god often appears on funerary urns (symbolizing power of life over death?)

funerary urn with human head, possibly young maize god emerging from mouth of jaguar – another human figure emerges from top of jaguar head. together with vegetal motifs-could represent rebirth of maize god.

funerary urn with young man’s head emerging from bird’s beak.

visual artists have a different relationship to history than musicians and even writers-because of surviving examples.

freestanding painted wooden sculptures-stelae inspired

also, sculpted heads-wood/plaster/cloth-papier-mâché


the recurring theme of loss: eden, anxiety dream, gerri, faith


haruki murakami – wild sheep chase


remember to believe in yourself – that is the lesson – the answer to the crisis of faith – the lost faith wasn’t your faith in god, love, art, beauty, or humanity – it was your faith in yourself…


find a gallery to show paintings in conjunction with a show at terrell’s. maybe also put small pieces at abbot’s. have everything well displayed on website. include writings, and video? book - publicize/promote

paintings
drawings
writings
significant titles
video-interviews
audio-clips
book

proposal
website
referrals

history of violence
psychology of violence
personal vs societal
passionate vs political

evolution-chimps

post world war two american history

search for assassinations, atrocities, violence

consider definition, history, and practice of cruel and unusual punishment.

tv, movies, and video games-is there any believable connection between these and violence? rationale behind ratings system / censorship?

be as fair as possible but don’t shy from opinion and bias-just distinguish fact from viewpoint.

write out the violence interview questions – post them and invite others to submit answers – via video

remember current events and found titles.

what happens to people’s bodies to make them shaped like they are?

start transcribing notes and formulating proposal-get ready for internet tomorrow.

(girl from where)
we laughed and we played
and we cried and laughed
we horsed around
and then we giraffed

I asked her if she’d
please marry me
she just gave me that look
and said, “we’ll see.”


I went insane one night in june
staring in staring at a crescent moon

and then at dawn the sun rose high
and to my moon, I said goodbye

I stood up and stretched and I went to bed
with visions of sugar plums atwirl in my head

I dreamt it was easter, and that I had lied
to the girl that had moved into my left side

I’d told her, you see, that her eyes were pearls
when really, I knew, they were cinnamon swirls

she said that was fine, just as long
as she could see me eat a song

so I sang myself some ice cream and pie
and then ate it all up, and said goodbye

she said, “don’t go, I have your hat.”
and as I looked I noticed that

her eyes were cinnamon, but also pearls
and she was the loveliest of all the girls

so we stayed together and dreamt ‘til noon
but awoke each dusk to stare at the moon.


one morning I awoke in the frozen south
with the strangest taste inside my mouth

so I felt around to see what was there
and what I found was a long blond hair

a pulled it out, but to my surprise
after the hair, I found some of eyes

and then a nose, a mouth, and chin!
they smiled at me and said with a grin

“good morning, and how are you?”
I said I’d be fine in a moment or two

she said that if I would help her up
she’d give me a drink for her golden cup

so I pulled and I pulled as much as I could
and when I had to finished, there she stood

with eyes like sunshine and lips like the rain
that quenches my thirst and eases my pain


I went for a walk and I saw a sight
she was something see, so I thought I might
walk a bit closer and see if she talked
she opened her mouth, but her tongue was locked.

I said, “como estás? and how are you?”
but her mouth just closed and her face turned blue
I ask, “what’s wrong?” but it was plain to see
she could not answer unless I found the key.

I reached deep down into my pants pocket
to try to find a key for her tongue, and unlock it
I found three quetzales, a bottle cap, and a pen
she looked at me curiously, with her mouth open

then I saw a flower growing from the ground
I looked for a gardener, but there was none to be found
so I reached and I picked it from where it had grown
then handed it to her and asked, “are you alone?”

she thanked me gladly and let out a moan.

it started from somewhere in her inside
and when it came out, her eyes opened wide
and then she announced in a voice sweet and pure
I’d never have thought it, but you found the cure


Some have dollars
And some have cents (sense)

some have pounds
And some have pence

Some might wish
For their weight in gold

Some might wish
To never grow old


I knew a man who could not fly
He tried to once, but broke his thigh

They fixed him up in a chair with wheels
And fed him bananas without the peels

After awhile he could walk again
And when I saw him I said, "How've ya been?"

He said, "Not bad, if you must know. "
I said, "That's great, now I must go. " - ( glad to hear it, but I've got to go(?))



I went for a walk with a giant fish
I found a penny and made a wish
I held it in my hand all day
I wished I might then I wished I may
I wish for a love and fame and wealth
Then I wished for leisure and good health


the fish you know, his name was frank
he dove into the ocean and then just sank
you see the thing I have to tell you about him
is that frank, though a fish, just couldn’t swim

so I called for the divers and the parameds
then we called the cops and we called the feds
the firemen came with their hook and ladder
and when they caught him, I couldn’t’ve been gladder.

he sputtered and spat and he heaved and he coughed
and then he cried because his heart was so soft.
he thanked each rescuer one by one
he shook their hands, and when he was done

he said to me, let’s go to a bar
so we walked to one ‘cause I don’t have a car.
when we got to the bar frank sat on a stool
I sat down next to him and asked, “ do you want to shoot pool?”

he said that he didn’t, that he wanted to think
and he thought he’d think better, if he had something to drink.
now, the thing about frank, is he drinks like a trout
he can keep at it for days and never pass out.

so he ordered club soda but without any bubbles
because with a stomach like his, they cause nothing but troubles.


for christmas one year frank had to head east
it seems that his brother was preparing a feast
he’d invited the family, the friends, and the staff
so frank couldn’t miss it, and I had to laugh
to see him so happy and excited to go
he asked me to come, but I had to say no.

you see I was feeling a need to head down
towards the equator to a quiet little town



xtap (water from the)

the bartender said, “we haven’t got any of that”
frank stayed on his stool in just stared and just sat


the wish

I wish I could just go out walking each day
and have lovely friends with something to say
and sometimes we’d say it and sometimes we wouldn’t
but just for the silence, not ‘cause we couldn’t

we’d walk and we’d play and we’d love and we’d sing
we’d eat what we liked and not hurt a thing
and that’s all that I wish, it might sound like a lot
but if you’ve just got one wish, then that’s all you’ve got.


I wished for peace, and diamonds and pearls
I wished for women and I wished for girls


so if you drop a penny upon the ground
leave it there where it might be found

by someone who will wish for love


all the treasures in all the worlds, you see
can’t make you happy or set you free

I stared at the phone but it didn’t ring

I had wished for myself and me and I

I sat alone in my bed


now every morning, as I close my eyes
she holds me close and sweetly sighs


I asked the weatherman what he thought
the chances were that I’d get caught

in the rain between here and there
he looked at me as if he didn’t care (with a blank stare)

and said that he couldn’t say for sure (say for certain?)
but if I’d like to choose a curtain


he looked at me as if he did not care
and then he said with a blank stare

I met a girl when I was young,
we fell in love and we had a son

and when he grew up, brave and tall
she went to the war one year in the fall

he fought with courage and conviction (?)


I fell in love with a girl from where
it had something to do with the curl of her hair

I said to her, “will you please?”
she answered, “not yet, I’ve lost my keys”

then gave me a look that I’ll never forget (not soon?)

Monday, May 15, 2006

lunes, 15 de mayo

happy birthday su.

another week has slipped by. after posting that last update – written tuesday, but posted wednesday, I went from monterrico to Antigua, talking politics and economics with some friendly Minnesotans. it was great to be back in Antigua, very familiar and very easy… surprising how different it is from the other places I’ve been in Guatemala, now that I can look at it in retrospect.

so that was wednesday, I spent that and thursday there, just relaxing comfortably. bought a couple books – hadn’t really had anything to read lately, did my laundry – which was long overdue, and walked around town. was very tempted to stay, but still had xela on my list, and so decided to at least check it out and then could come back or return to the lake to finish out the month.

I almost ended up staying through the weekend anyway, but at the last minute friday morning I sorta spur of the momentish made up my mind to get it over with and go while I had something to read on the bus. so off I went. the ride had a couple of necessary transfers, one of which was unexpected and so I missed it and wound up having to hitch a ride back to quiché and finding a connecting bus, but that was pretty easy and quick and a bit of an adventure.

arrived in xela sometime early afternoonish, had chosen a place to stay – this time of year it doesn’t seem like anything is full, so I’ve been getting my choice pretty easily. walked from the bus terminal, which was a little confusing because it’s off the map that’s included in lonely planet, but I at least new which direction it was in and so it wasn’t difficult or as long as I’d expected. found my way straight to the place, left my things in the room and went out exploring.

I love xela. this is probably my favorite place so far. it’s a good sized city, but it’s easy to walk from one side to the other – it’s bigger and less touristy than Antigua, and smaller and less polluted than the capital. it seems to have lots of good places to eat – found a vegetarian meal friday night served by a girl from winnapeg and accompanied by an interesting conversation with a student from Dartmouth. the following morning I had a good breakfast at a café that featured music by a jazz quartet – very sophisticated, you know.

been walking around a lot, took some photos yesterday, timing is important because so far it’s rained most of the afternoon each day. but there have been several sunshiny hours earlier in the day though, which make for good walking.

I’m pretty content here, I think I’ll stay for awhile, maybe until it’s time to head home, only a little more than two weeks to go… can that be right? I’ll have to find a place to plug my computer in today so I can put this up, but of course if you’re reading this then I must’ve already done that.

enjoy your day.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

martes 9 de mayo

martes 9 de mayo,

hmmm. what can I tell ya? have managed to let quite awhile slip by this time. I remember how consistently I was keeping up on this blog when I was in Antigua. I was comfortably immersed in a routine that included time for writing either in the afternoon if I planned to go out, or before bed if I’d stayed in. once I was in san pedro, my routine still kept me writing pretty consistently, but since then there has been no routine at all, and boy do the days slip by. oh well, I suppose it’s good to have periods of routine mixed with periods of its lack, so I’ll just see what I can do avbout catching up.

I left off apparently when I was in coban. from there I took a bus to lanquìn, which is a tiny little town about 40 miles from coban, but the roads are twisty (it’s hard to write “windy” and mean they wind around, because of course it looks like they blow, if you see what I mean, and somehow tortuous seems too cliché or hi-falutin’ or both maybe… for roads like these) and so, it’s almost a two hour drive to get there. of course it’s not just the roads that slow down the travel, it’s also the fact that the bus stops frequently to pick up and drop off passengers and their pets along the way. it was a very colorful trip.

the town itself is little more than a central square surrounding a park, with a few streets shooting off for a few hundred yards before disappearing into steep foliage filled cliffs and hillsides. the main street that passes through the town travels roughly north/south. if you continue south for about six miles you’ll get to semuc champey, which I’ll tell you about in a minute. if you backtrack (towards coban) about a half a mile or so, you’ll get to las grutas de lanquìn – the caves of lanquìn, which are the main tourist attraction here, although really the main reason to visit lanquìn, seems to be that it’s on the way to semuc champey. so, I arrived, spilled out of the bus, dropped my backpack at the first hotel I saw, which incidentally was clean and cheap, but its nearness to the bus stop was its main selling point, and headed off to the caves.

the walk to the caves was beautiful, along a treelined unpaved road. the caves were dark, cool, and slippery with condensation and bat shit. I had them completely to myself and was warned by the guard at the ticket shack that I only had an hour, because they couldn’t run the generator that powers the lights for longer than that for just one person. not having a watch, I took a photo as I entered, which allowed me to see the time according to the camera’s clock on the LED screen. I didn’t think they’d really turn out the lights with me still in there, but having read tom sawyer, I didn’t want to take any chances.

I took photos throughout the walk, as much in an attempt to capture the feeling of being there and the fascinating forms of the rocks, as to keep an eye on my allotted time. the first few hundred yards were sorta sparsely lit with bare bulbs spreadalong a line about one every dozen or fifteen feet. they seemed like forty waters, but to be fair, were probably 100’s – the main point being that it was pretty dark, would’ve been absolutely dark if the power had failed, and except for the bats, I was alone. nevertheless, after the first few minutes,I got accustomed to it and, while somewhat cautious – didn’t want to break a leg or slip and become concussed – had a good adventure and explored the lit part thoroughly. I arrived at the end of the light bulbs after about forty-five minutes and so, hurried as much as sure-footing would allow back to the entrance, which took much less time on the way out (not stopping to take photos, or examine rock shapes) than it had on the way in. I didn’t take a final shot as I emerged, so I’m not certain what the time was, but I think I made it with minutes to spare. as I walked past the guard and waved a goodbye to him, I noticed his assistant scrambling up a bank towards the generator switch to turn it off… so they probably would’ve waited for me afterall.

that left me with most of the day left to relax, which is what I did. I walked several periodic laps around the town, but there was little to do. once I stopped and bought water, once I stopped and bought an orange soda, twice I stopped and ate a meal. nothing vegetarian on any menus, but I found a friendly senora in the restaurant closest to the hotel who would whip me up rice, eggs and beans anytime of day and provide me with a huge stack of corn tortillas, all for 10Q – 15 with an orange soda. in between those little excursions, I lounged in my room reading, and maybe typing a couple emails to be sent later.

the evening was surprisingly loud and boisterous. the town was so sleepy and quiet during the day, I was kind of surprised to hear it wake up at night with loud music blaring from someplace… which might’ve been a vehicle that was occasionally stopping and then driving a lap around the square, because it would be loud for awhile and then fade away and then pick back up… that theory made more sense to me than the one where the volume was just inexplicably raised and lowered. that went on for an hour or so and then died down, but voices continued out in the street ‘til well past 2am. I couldn’t tell what they were talking about.

the next morning, which I just figured out must’ve been thursday the 4th, I found my way to semuc champey. there’s no real organized way of getting there, well actually there sort of is, but it’s not really scheduled or posted. the method that I used, which worked well, was to simply pack my bags, go out on the street, and wait for a truck heading my way. while waiting, I stopped in for breakfast at my friendly lady’s restaurant, and by the time I was done, spotted a pickup truck that was loading passengers into its bed.

the road was bumpy and windy (tortuous, not blowing) it was unpaved and sloped steeply off to the sides. there was really only a little more than one lane’s width of flat road in the center, but somehow there was room for big oncoming dumptrucks to pass unhesitatingly (but heart-stoppingly, for me anyway) to our left. we climbed up a series of awitchbacks that left us looming over the tiny town distantly beneath us, and then wound our way through some heavily forested area with everything from pines to coconut and banana trees, eventually coming out into scorched hillsides intended for crop planting – probably corn, judging by the steep fields already being cultivated. eventually we arrived along a river and I disembarked at las marias, which is the one spot to stay overnight close to semuc champey itself, which is a national park, or preserve, I’m not sure what term they use.

I checked in, got a dorm room (25Q) that had four beds, but ended up having it to myself for the two nights I stayed there, so that was good. electricity at las marias is scarce, and the generator is turned off at 10pm and doesn’t come on again until some undefined time late in the morning… or maybe afternoon, I never quite figured it out, because I wasn’t really around - in my room, it only took the form of a bare bulb by the door that allowed me to see my way to the bed at night. the walk to semuc champey is a hot and parly uphill three-quarters of a mile. once in the park there’s still probably another half mile to reach the pools, but the scenery throughout is beautiful.

the pools are formed by a series of waterfalls that spill down the mountain. the water gathers between each and rests in shallowish spots before continuing down to the next level. when I say shallow, that doesn’t mean that you can touch bottom everywhere, but most of the pools do have places where you can, but also spots that might get as deep as three or four meters… perfect for swimming and diving. the biggest waterfalls drop into some of the coolest water, which is hidden from the sun by the cliff overwhich the water is falling (if you see what I mean) the result is that you can swim underneath the waterfall and be warmed up by the sun-heated water from above. it was lots of fun and I played and swam for a couple hours before heading off to explore what else the area had to offer.

on the way into the park, I had noticed a sign that simply said “mirador” and pointed up a path. I ignored it for then, being anxious to check out the pools, but went back to it after my swim. it took me up an incredibly steep ascent straight up (well, there were switchbacks, and occasionally wooden steps) the side of the mountain. I climbed and climbed and climbed for an unbelievable distance, wondering if I would eventually find the top. eventually I did, and the path leveled out and began to slope back down uneventfully. but then, just as I was thinking, that’s all there is to it – a good work out – the path opened up into a little ledge that looks steeply over the pools far below. it was incredible, and well worth the hike. I have a photo, I don’t know if it really shows the steepness and the distance as well as I’d like, but I’ll put it here anyway.

I sat there for quite awhile, resting from the climb and looking down at the tiny people so far below, seemingly cool and relaxed as they swam and lolled in the bluegreen water. I had intended to be done with swimming for the day, but after the hot and sweaty climb, the water looked so irresistibly inviting that I had to go back for more. my second swim ended up being even longer and more adventurous than my first and I definitely pushed my limits of swimming against currents and climbing up banks and leaping off ledges. it was fun and exhilarating.

oh, one interesting aside, that I almost forgot to mention. as I walked up the path towards the mirador turnoff after my morning swim, I encountered a group of a dozen (maybe fifteen) grinning teenage boys dressed in cami’s and carrying machine guns. they greeted me in a friendly way, and having grown accustomed to heavily armed security, my only thought was that it seemed excessive for such a tranquil place to have such overly prepared park rangers. I forgot about them while I was up at the mirador lookout, but when I came back down, I noticed one standing sentry over one of the pools I had swum in earlier. I thought, maybe I had inadvertently been in a restricted zone, and was glad I’d gotten out before they arrived. but as it turned out, I found somebody to ask about it and was informed that none of the pools were off limits and that the guards were there because the first lady (that would be oscar berger’s wife, not george bush’s) was coming for a visit. so there you have it, I found my way to pretty much the most secluded spot I could and end up arriving on the same day as the first lady of Guatemala. by the time my second swim was over a few hours later, she was there, as I walked towards the park exit. surrounded by fawning dignitaries and an impressive entourage, all well guarded by inconspicuous and heavily armed kids lurking amidst the green background. from what I could see the mrs. berger seemed very nice and had a pleasant smile, although her husband sounds like a real piece of work… as national leaders often are. outside the gate (ok there isn’t really a gate) there was quite a crowd waiting for a glimpse of her as she exited. there were tv crews with big cameras and a news helicopter. also there were parked four or five very official looking suv’s which were the first lady’s and entourage transport. all very exciting and dissonant.

made some friends that night over dinner. a trio from the basque area of spain, near bilbao, who were just finishing up six months of volunteering at a school in xela (actually two were teaching, the other was a nurse and so probably not at the school, but I’m not certain) very nice people, I enjoyed talking with them. also befriended an English couple – sam and kate – who had been traveling around the world for eleven months and were due back in another month or so after working there way up through mexico to visit an aunt in LA. I played an odd sort of cardgame with a vulgar name that I’ve forgotten… maybe asshole, but that’s not quite right.

the next day I went fro a swim in the river directly across from the hostel, challenging myself to swim across, which was a bit daunting as the water was kinda deep most of the way and the current, while not too strong added a factor of concern. it felt good to risk it though and also good just to swim in the coolish water. after doing that for some time, I borrowed an innertube from the hostel and floated downstream. I successfully navigated two rapids and then started thinking about the potential difficulty of the return and so headed back upstream. it did prove pretty tough going to get back through the rapids - had to wade part of it, and pull myself along against the current by grabbing rocks – but once through that part it was just a matter of staying near the bank where the current was lighter and paddling with my arms ( and sometimes legs as well). it was a pretty good workout and left my arms sorta sore and heavy for a couple days.

back at las marias, I spent the afternoon reading a pretty bad novel, written in 1980 and trying to anticipate the coming digital age… interesting really only in a historical way… hard to believe that none of us really new what the future held in store back in those days before mtv, pc’s and the internet… so I can’t really hold the author at fault, but it was a pretty poorly written book otherwise… but of course I’m the one that spent an afternoon reading it… and I guess I enjoyed for the simple fact that it was a book and it was written in English, and that has become rare treat lately.

the three from spain had left that morning, so I hung out with sam and kate that evening and also a girl named melody from austin texas who had arrived. there was also a girl from norway, who’s name I didn’t catch and two guys from england, one of whose names was sam, which I remembered because of the strangeness of two sams being in such a small group – both English though, maybe it’s a more common name there, I don’t know. anyway, it was a pleasant evening. I thought about catching the five o’clock shuttle to coban – especially when I heard that it was actually a 6am shuttle because it was sunday, but then as I was going to sleep I realized I couldn’t because I hadn’t yet paid my bill and if you’re leaving early you must pay the night before… so that was a good excuse to sleep in. which proved a good decision – not the least because a large group arrived in the middle of the night and caused quite a stir… never really got the story on where they came from and why they would be arriving at one in the morning.

I got up later than I’d intended, partly because of the noise in the middle of the night and partly because it was only just then sinking into my mind that Guatemala – or maybe just some of it (?) had finally gotten around to switching to daylight savings time… I still haven’t gotten it figured out and as of this writing, simply don’t know what time it is. as I arrived in the restaurant area though, sam and kate were just ordering breakfast and so I ordered to despite noticing that a truck was already there and might presumably be heading to back lanquìn. sam and kate confirmed that suspicion, but said the driver had told them to go ahead and eat first. so we did. the breakfasts there are not great, and I thought as I was eating that I probably would’ve been better off waiting until I got to my friendly spot in lanquìn, but as it ended up, it was good I ate when I did.

the three of us, along with a handful of locals, had an adventurous ride into lanquìn, held up at one point for roadwork and an amazing bit of driving when we finally maneuvered around the big backhoe. a minibus to coban was waiting when we arrived, and so I got straight into it. it ended up only taking me just outside of town, where we all switched into another. there I met a girl named Karen, who is from the arctic area in northern Canada. I had no idea until talking with her that the northwest territory had split in two and that a new Canadian province had formed out of the eastern half. the entire province has a population of about 25,000 (80% inuit) and the town she’s from only has about 800 people. she works with special needs kids, but lately has been behind a desk rather than working directly with the kids, and now is just beginning a year of volunteering with a couple different schools in central and south America. all very interesting and the conversation made the trip to coban go quickly. once there, I decided to walk her to the bus station since it would be the same one I’d be leaving from the following day to go to Guatemala city, and so it seemed both polite and a good opportunity to scout it out, but by the time we got there, I decided that really I might as well just continue on to the capital anyway, as long as I had somebody to talk with. so I did that.

Karen was on her way to copan, so switched buses about fifty miles outside of Guatemala city. I continued on and held my breath through a lot of highspeed truck passing and lane switching and generally scary bus riding, but got to the capital in one piece and was glad to see that the bus depot was one of the ones in zona 1, only a couple blocks from the hotel fenix, where I’d stayed before. I was made welcome there and it feltlike a homecoming, and I found that melody, from Austin texas, was checked into my old room, having taken my advice both that Guatemala city was worth visiting and that the hotel fenix was the place to stay. so that made me feel good.

I spent sunday hanging out in the city. I found the terminal de autobuses in zona 4, where the lonely planet told me I’d need to go to catch a bus to monterrico. it looked pretty disorganized and crazy, but at least I knew where it was, so I wouldn’t be hot and lost carrying my backpack, etc. the next morning however, as I left the hotel, the friendly guy at the desk asked where I was off to and I told him. he asked if I knew where to go and when I said to the terminal de autobuses, he said that the buses for monterrico didn’t leave from there anymore. so, with a fair amount of confusion, I finally got directions from him to the place in zona 12, where I needed to go. I had to get on a bus #51 (or #4 would also apparently work) and that would take me to the place. a girl on the bus told me when I should get off and where to go after doing so, otherwise I would’ve had a rough time. then as I walked along, trying to figure it out, the bus suddenly appeared sort of magically in front of me and a moment later I was on it. the downside was that it was three hours (to go about 75 miles) and I already had to pee by the time I got on.

the bumpy roads didn’t help my urinary situation and the crowded bus and the heat combined to make it a rough journey that seemed likely to never end. finally after a switching of buses, at which time, had I known more, I could’ve found a place to pee, we arrived at the dock in la avellana, from where you take a boat to monterrico. again I missed a chance to pee, but that time, had I looked for a place, I might’ve missed the launch and I’m not sure when the next would’ve been. the launch left pretty much as soon as we all got off the bus and loaded ourselves onto it. I spent the surprisingly long trip concentrating on resisting the almost unbearably urgent need to pee as the gentle waves lapped fluidly against the sides of the boat, and the vibrations of the outboard motor traveled through the wooden planks of the boat making what seemed a direct connection with (and dangerous temptation for) my bladder.

after visions of going down in local legends as, “remember that gringo that peed himself on the launch to monterrico? man that was soooo funny!” and concern over the possibility of finding a reasonably priced room when arriving with a pee soaked pants front, we finally arrived at the montrrico dock. I hurried to the first place that looked even a little like a restaurant and asked for a bathroom. they pointed me down a sidestreet to another place. I saw a sign that said WC and had the little man/woman international pictograph there and so, although it looked unlikely - just several people laying around under a thatched roof – I went inside, where a woman agreed that she had a bathroom, and for only three quetzals I could use it. I would’ve gladly paid a huindred times that, despite the fact that it would’ve left me with almost no cash on an island beach resort with no bank. I quickly dug in my pocket, found the three coins, left my bags outside the door and peed happily for several minutes.

feeling immeasurably better, I thanked the señora and went off in search of a place to stay. I walked by one place that advertised 40Q per night sunday through thursday, which was about as low as I’d been led to expect, but with my newly relieved bladder, I felt like I might as well explore a bit. my search didn’t really reveal anything that looked better, so I eventually doubled back and found myself the happy occupant of room #14 of whatever the name of this place is, I’ll have to pay attention the next time I go out. it’s easy to spot because it’s right next door to the internet place, so names aren’t too important.

after checking in yesterday, yes, that’s when it was, just yesterday, so we’re almost caught up here. I headed out to the beach. this is an ugly, litter-filled town with sad neglected dogs, lazy from the heat, lounging on the shady areas of the black sand. that said, the beach once you get a little away from the town itself is beautiful. and the ocean is amazing. it’s the pacific and it feels like the pacific and yet it’s very different from the pacific back home. it’s like seeing a new and completely unexpected side to a lover you’ve known for years… at once exciting, but tinged with a feeling of betrayal. the water is warm, more than warm, close to body temperature, as is the air… wading out into it is like moving into another medium of density, but not of heat. the surf is dramatic with huge waves breaking a little too far from shore to ride in. the rip tide and undertow are dramatic in most areas, complicating and making more dangerous the waveplay… and of course lifeguards are unheard of, as are, this time of week/year anyway, other bathers, so you’re on your own.

after an afternoon swim and a refreshing orange soda, I went in search if vegetarian food. pretty tough to find, but I did finally locate a restaurant that would provide my with a veggie pizza after 6pm… which was apparently 7pm according to what I’d come to believe local time was, but I really can’t tell anymore. I waited until what was either 6:30 or 7:30 and walked back over. the pizza was great, and I washed it down with a liter of beer (they were out of the small size) but throughout the meal I was continually attacked by mosquitos. amazingly, I seem to have emerged unscathed, and won’t step out after dark here again without my repellant crema applied generously.

my room has a fan and a mosquito net, but the night was long and hot. there was a thunderstorm around 3-4am, but while loud enough to wake me, it didn’t cool things off. I’ll go for a swim now and take some pictures later and post this sometime this afternoon. tomorrow, I’ll go somewhere, but it might be back to Guatemala city or maybe to Antigua, I need to look into transport options today. either way, my real destination is xela, which will finish off my list of places I feel compelled to visit. after that, I’m not sure where I’ll finish out the month.

I hope you’re all doing well, and if I’ve been out of touch with you – which is almost certainly the case, it’s not because you’re not in my thoughts.

later:

I didn’t get around to posting this… long story, or not… let’s just call it laziness… no, let’s call it procrastination… whatever we call it, I’m putting it off til tomorrow or the next day. I went out and took photos, but the truth is they’re not great… I went out this morning with my camera, but only took a couple of shots and none of the waves, even though they were big. it was overcast and I thought it would clear up and so I waited. after writing the above, I went out for a swim, but didn’t bring the camera as I didn’t want to leave it on the beach__ not that anybody else was there and not that they would’ve taken it if they’d been, but it just seemed like I shouldn’t take it. anyway, the waves were still big and while I had fun, it was impossible to catch anything good… I rode a few, but caught them so close to the steep shoreline that they weren’t great rides. finally I went out with the camera in the afternoon, but by then the waves had died down and all I ended up shooting were dogs and pigs… and a few chickens. I guess I took some shots of the waves and I’ll probably post them, but they really don’t show how virulent this coast can be. oh well, believe me and use your imagination… think big waves, breaking late, carving a steep sloping shoreline and creating a crazy riptide… oh and did I mention the sand is black?… as if in perpetual mourning, I guess… if johnny cash was a surfer, this’d be his beach.

oh, bytheway, just in case my brother is still printing this off for my parents, I noticed yesterday that there’s a post office here and was going to send a letter that would maybe get to ohio by sometime close to mother’s day, which I think is next sunday, but god, or one of his assistants, only knows… anyway, for some inexplicable reason it was closed today… I don’t know why, so mom, if you’re reading this I’m sorry and I’m thinking of you and I love you and I hope you have a lovely mothers’ day.

oh, bytheway also… I checked with my friendly pizza making restaurant woman (had spaghetti tonight) and she explained “old time” which is standard and what seems to be on all the clocks still, and “new” time which is daylight savings and what bus schedules and computers seem to rely on. there’s no easy way around it, because unless you have your own watch set to reflect one of the two systems. you’ll never know which is which… so all’s lost as far as that goes.

time for bed. in the morning I’m gonna try to figure out what time I need to check out (la hora de salida, I believe) and what time the buses leave. I’m leaning towards Antigua, but I don’t know if I’ll spend the night or just try to plug away and get to xela… we’ll see.

oh, the final bytheway, today is (I think) either ann oliverio’s or jonathan wight’s birthday… I’ve gotten them confused… if anyone can help me out with that drop me an email. my guess is that ann’s was today and jonathan’s was yesterday, but it’s been a long time. I think kevin kennison’s was the third, and that’s even longer. I should do a search for him.

goodnight.

next day now, posting the photos, the connection seems to be failing, so I'm gonna quit while I'm ahead and maybe add the rest of the photos later. about to catch a ride to antigua - longish story... from there I can get to xela.


Tuesday, May 02, 2006

martes 25 abril

martes, 25 abril

well, this isn’t too bad, feels like ages since I’ve updated this, but it’s really only been a couple days, because I wrote saturday afternoon and although it’s tuesday now, it’s bright and early… actually the couple glimpses that I can get through the trees show me a sky that looks overcast and I hear the grumbling of thunder somewhere not too far away… so it’s early, but maybe not as bright as it could be, which is ok with me because that makes it pleasantly cool despite the humidity which hangs heavily in the air and smells and tastes pungently like the earth herself is sweatily recuperating from a night a amorous indiscretion.

I’m in rio dulce now. well, actually I’m not in the town of rio dulce, which when I arrived there yesterday, seemed pretty much like more of the same sort of place I’ve been getting used to elsewhere, but I am on the rio dulce – almost literally… maybe literally, now as I look now over the ledge and realize that water does seem to go all the way beneath this cabana. I’m on sort of an inlet, not the main drag of the river, very quiet and tranquil, the only sounds so far this morning being birds and jungle noises, which are the kinds of things that a new-age sound mixer might put on a cd to help the city-bound overcome insomnia… for now they seem to be comfortably background noise volumed… say about a three or four, and had I not just woken from a pleasant night’s sleep, maybe they’d cause me to doze off a bit myself.

I’m staying at a place mentioned in the lonely planet, it’s called casa perico, and although it sounded attractive when I read about it in the capital, I had opted against it simply because it seemed sort of isolated. but once I arrived, I realized that when it comes to rio dulce, isolated is preferable to the alternative. I’m not likely to run into many locals here, but there are ten or twelve other travelers around and that seems good enough for me.

I have the upper floor of a palapa roofed cabana. the roof is thatched with a double layer of long sort of palm frondish leaves… long straight shafts with countless leaves shooting off to the sides… since I’m on the top, which I guess amounts to the attic (there’s just one room/floor below) my walls are palapa also, but the roof rises at such a steep angle that it makes for quite a comfortable and spacious living area with a very high ceiling. it’ll be interesting to see how things hold out when the rain comes, apparently the roof must work pretty well, because everything seems dry and well preserved. I have a pleasant breeze running through my loft as both ends remain open, no glass enclosures here, just tall triangular openings revealing trees with pendulous vines like rastafarian hair dangling down to the dark but shallow water below. in the middle of the room are two twin beds with mosquito nets. there is a low table and coat rack across from where I’m seated at a picnickish table with benches on each side. there’s also an anachronistically modern oscillating fan, which I’ve turned off now in the coolness of the morning, but last night kept on – neglecting the oscillation option in favor of simply aiming it directly at myself. I fell asleep blanketless, but sometime in the middle of the night, woke enough to cover myself.

outside now I hear human voices and that must mean that the others are rising and that maybe the kitchen is open and breakfast available. I’ll go find out and return to write more later.

miercoles 26 abril

well, it’s later than I intended when I left off writing yesterday morning. it’s about 26 hours later, although time here travels somehow differently than elsewhere… maybe that can be said for all places/times/people…

anyway,let’s see if I can take a stab at catching this up.

jueves 27 abril

well, clearly I didn’t take much of a stab at that yesterday… I think I got sidetracked by breakfast and then read for awhile and then went for a swim… but I’m getting ahead of myself, or at least ahead of where I’ve left off… so let’s see about backtracking.

guatemala city reeked suffocatingly of car exhaust fumes. they billowed out of the back end of every passing vehicle, invading my lungs like three packs a day in a coal mine. I had a great time there, but was anxious to leave before I’d consumed irreparable quantities of carcinogenic toxins. on the plus side the hotel was run down, but cool. it had big rooms and hot water. it was run by a friendly family, and although the restaurants don’t accommodate vegetarians, there was a market down the street, so I did alright once I gave up on eating out.

the museums were great. I went to the popol vuh on saturday, which was good sized and well presented___ just realized I’ve already told about that, I’m not as far behind as I feel. the museum of archeology and ethnology was really impressive – very large, filled with artifacts (sorta casually and carelessly displayed and identified) from all over Guatemala. I was glad that I’d gone to the popol vuh the day before, so I recognized many of the pieces (funerary urns, those neat whistling pitchers, etc…) even though they weren’t labeled. I had the place pretty much to myself. I walked from the north side of the city, leaving the hotel around 7:30, and got there in plenty of time to be there when it opened at 9. the walk was longer than the day before, I think it must’ve been about three and a half miles, but I’m not certain. by the time I was leaving a few other visitors had arrived, but the place definitely doesn’t seem to be well trafficked, or at least isn’t the thing to do on a sunday morning. it’s weekend hours are from 9-4:30, but it closes for an hour and a half in the middle of the day, I guess so the very minimal staff (a guy at the counter and a heavily armed - but amiable - guard on the front steps) can get some lunch. so, I left at halftime and walked over to the zoo, which is nearby.

the aurora zoo is much more popular on sunday afternoons than the museum, but not uncomfortably so. the wait to enter wasn’t more than a couple minutes and it was only that long because I foolishly got in line behind a group paying with a credit card, which caused some kind of confusion that I could observe, but not quite fathom. once inside the grounds I found a pretty wide selection of animals. it was tough to feel as positive as I would’ve liked, because while the inmates didn’t seem abused, neither did they seem particularly thriving. there’s quite an assortment of primates, who with the exception of one baboon happily receiving a pubic delousing, seemed sorta disgruntled. the other animals seemed accepting of their incarceration and a couple bathing grizzly bears actually seemed to be enjoying what maybe they feel is an extended tropical vacation. los jirafes were stoic as usual, but looked very impressive, being in the same area as the zebras and some goats, whose stature really showed off their height… also, because of the design of the enclosure they’re on the same level as the viewers and so really tower above you… unlike the LA zoo which causes you to look down at them from above. also worthy of mention was an african elephant that was doing a remarkable sort of balance beam routine on the concrete lip of the moat separating him from the viewers… whether she was ex of a circus, simply a bit of a graceful daredevil, or tragically suicidal, I couldn’t tell, but she pulled it off without a hitch… and then calmly turned around and retraced her steps.

I spent a couple hours there and saw pretty much everything they had to offer. the children on the bumper cars seemed to be the exhibit having the most fun, although the parents seemed to like watching the monkeys more. I felt particularly bad for the howler monkeys who were constantly pestered and provoked by thoughtless fathers anxious to have them howl for their childrens’ glee… oh well, couldn’t quite see a solution to that one.

the giraffes seemed ok and the llamas didn’t even notice they were in a zoo… I think. but I’ll bet all the animals look forward to closing time when the people go away.

so that was my sunday. I went back to the hotel, wandered around the markets for awhile and went to bed fairly early in anticipation of my early departure,

the next morning I checked out, had a nice goodbye with the friendly family son at the front desk and headed off to the bus depot. I was sorta dreading the six hour bus ride, after being so tightly squeezed during the four hour ride from san pedro, but surprisingly the bus ended up being very modern and comfortable with bucket seats which would’ve limited the squeezing had the crowd been greater, but as it was, there were at least a few empty seats the whole way.

we arrived in rio dulce early afternoonish, and I think I’ve already mentioned that I pretty quickly caught a boat to bring me about ten minutes downstream to this little secluded paradise. I’ve had a lot of relaxing experiences here, but I think will skip the details for now, but briefly – took a boat downriver to Livingston, which was a beautiful trip and a fun afternoon in town… maybe I’ll get back there if I have time later, but for now it was good for an afternoon to smell the saltwater of the caribbean, and experience first hand how different carribean guatemala is from the rest of the country. been doing a lot of swimming over the past couple days… my favorite place is to simply paddle a canoe a quarter of a mile or so, and tie it off at a floating dock and dive in… very simple and luxurious. I’ve become a pretty accomplished canoer if you ask me.

been drawing some pictures and taking some notes… I feel like I’ll be ready to get to work by the time I get back. the best part of being down here is that there are so few things that I can do most of the time that it forces me to do a lot of the things I probably woudn’t give time to if I were home… I’m looking forward to having expanded opportunities and options when I return to the US… but for now, I think I’m making the best of this.

by the time you read this I’ll be on my way to tikal… unless I don’t get around to posting it until after. and then, who knows where I’ll be… sweeping back down south I suppose.

lunes le primero de mayo

or not – on my way to tikal that is – I did stop off and check my email the other day in flores before heading to tikal, but I used the internet place’s computer and so, I didn’t post this. I’m optimistic that I’ll post it tomorrow though, which is why I’m trying to catch it up a bit tonight… although, I’m kinda beat after a long day of traveling, so I think I’ll skip a lot of details.

I left rio dulce friday morning and caught a bus to flores/santa Elena. the ride took about four hours, so I had some time in the afternoon to wander around and check things out. flores is very lovely, santa Elena is not, but both are worth wandering around in, even if the heat was indescribably hot/humid… I pretty much always had a 1.5 liter bottle of water with me, which I would pour in through my mouth and let seap out through my pores, and from there it would either form a slick and shiny liquid coating over all exposed areas of skin, and simply soak through the clothing covering any unexposed areas. weirdly, or maybe perversely, even masochistically I suppose, I enjoyed it… had I not had plenty of rehydrating agua pura handy, maybe it wouldn’t have been as pleasurable, but having my bottle always with me allowed me to feel a sauna-like cleansing… kinda like the euphoria that accompanies having your fever break, but without having to go through the inconvenience of being sick.

saturday morning I went up to tikal. it was of course, amazing. the monuments were everything I expected, and of course I expected them to be, having seen lots of photos and heard lots of descriptions. but what I hadn’t really anticipated was how tremendous the views from the tops of the pyramids/monuments would be, or how much I’d enjoy just walking through the jungle to get from place to place. it was great! needless to say I sweated through more clothing. I spent the night there, but the sunrise was to early to legitimately watch it from the top of the temple because the site doesn’t open until 6 and sunrise was at 5:15, so rather than abuse the park rules I skipped it… but only, I’ll admit, after some moral quandaric soul searching… that and the consideration of the dangers involved in ascending those rickety steps even in the best of daylit circumstances.

spent sunday back in flores. had some fun, made some friends, heard some spanish music. left early this morning and went to sayaxché. I liked it – dirty, dusty, hot, rickety… lots of unpainted board-paneled shacks with corrugated metal roofs – very similar to santa Elena, but smaller and more consistently impoverished… and just as hot. a strange sort of ubiquity of locals wearing “walker texas ranger t-shirts… couldn’t figure that out. I’ve come to expect “puma” apparel and orange crush signs and gallo everything, but the abundance of “walker texas ranger t-shirts” seemed unexplainable. I didn’t see any other non-guateltecos at all, which surprised me because I didn’t think I was that far off the beaten track. there really weren’t that many in flores either and now that I think of it, none in santa elena. of course there were a lot in tikal – mostly german, it seemed, but most of the tikal crowd were Guatemalan, and most of those school groups – having my sketchbook with me led to making friends with some of the students (both high school and college). anyway, I guess the peak tourist season is over – at least that’s what the guidebook says and the scarcity of people and the abundance of rooms seems to bear them out… not that the guidebook is immune to making mistakes… but those are other stories.

the book also tells me that the rainy season starts in may, so it might turn out that I start getting caught in downpours, but it’s hard to picture so far. I made it here to coban this afternoon and have done a little exploring. tomorrow, I’ll wander around some more and with luck, post this update. I’ve been very out of touch with everybody, so will try to catch up on emails too… this traveling phase of my journey doesn’t seem to lend itself to internet related activities as much as the staying put phase did.

so from here, I plan on heading to a sorta secluded sounding place called semuc-champey wednesday morning… it’s supposed to be really beautiful, and if it lives up (or even comes close) to the descriptions I’ll probably stay for a few days.

oh, bytheway I finally found a store (after lots of attempts, and just about giving up hope, and really only trying for the sake of persistence) that stocked the memory card I needed for my camera. it was kinda pricey, but it will be nice to take photos again. in the mean time, friends I met in rio dulce and went to livingston with named eitan and lital, sent the ones I've uploaded here. there are shots of the trip we took down the river, a crocodile that was in livingston, a happy family in livingston and this bonus shot of lital and a traditionally dressed woman (from antigua?) thanks for sending the photos guys!